big huge sorry to everyone for not keeping up with comments, emails and phone calls. things are pretty nuts right now. i've been doing a lot of freaking out/crying. had a vicious panic attack while saying goodbye to my parents yesterday, complete with hyperventalation. i couldn't breath for like 45 minutes. i'm really hoping that doesn't happen when i say goodbye to moo today. it was really unsettling. aubrey told me that what we should do is just say "ok see you in a few, love you!" and hug and then hop in the car and just drive off. then when we are on the mass pike we call call each other and say good bye for real then, instead of when we are face to face and freaking out. long drawn out goodbyes are really hard. it's almost better for everyone to just cut it short or something. besides, it's not like it's really goodbye.

who am i kidding... i'm going to lose it.

we packed up the storage box but we couldn't fit all the stuff in, surprise surprise. so we are shipping some of it (mostly clothes) and having my parents store some furniture.

i love you guys... thank you for being so supportive when i've needed you the most.